Fear is an interesting thing. It comes as many different things and at many different levels. One fear can be another's dream. Like someone might dream about getting up on stage in the spotlight while it terrifies the other person. Fear, is a weird thing.
As a kid I had fear like most children did. I feared the dark, monsters under my bed, and so on. But as I grew older I realized that my fear didn't keep going, it stopped. Many people my age fear the future, money, or school. But after hearing about so many people and what their "Greatest Fear" is I thought for a moment.
"What is the thing that scares me so badly that I fear it with an uncontrollable passion"
I sat their and thought hardly about it. Wanting to know so I could conquer that, but I never found one. I mean, I hate spiders, small spaces, and stuff like that. I get scared at times but that's all it is. I 'get' scared and it moves on. I jump and get over it.
So honestly, I don't really 'Fear' anything. Then I thought for a moment: "If I have no fear, then can't that be a dangerous thing?" Then it hit me. God created us without fear. I may not fear but I'm not ignorant. I don't fear things but I do not embrace bad things with open arms. I have a little saying, it goes
"If I die, then I die. But I don't want to be calling death's name"
Basically what I'm saying is, I don't fear death, but I'm certainly not going to jump in front of a moving car in hopes that it stops.
Honestly, once I let go the thing's I feared and gave it to God, life got so....Easy. Like a weight was off of my shoulders. Like I can dance in the rain without worrying about if it will hail or not. So, I get scared, I have my moments but I move on.
Fear is annoying and it kept me from making friends, dancing, and getting closer to God. If we refuse to give in to fear then what is their to lose? NOTHING. So kick the annoying weasel away and take back your freaking peace.
Sincerely, the girl with a complex mind.
